Trisha Reloaded

Dedicated to Trisha, as always. Dedicated also to L, my source of inspiration, and the reason why I choose to see the bright side of teaching.

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

They're almost gone...

The corridors are quiet as the school gets ready to wind down on the second last day of the school term.

The staff room is quiet, except for a few teachers shuffling about. Outside, it is unusually silent. Perhaps because of the O level practical exam tomorrow, no one seems to be around, not even the Sec 4's, who were still hanging around school in the afternoon last week.

Last week, I watched some of the Sec 4's as they took a break from their studying and played captain's ball, haze notwithstanding. They were squealing and screaming, their young shirll voices reverberating through the damp air.

"I'm going to miss them," I thought to myself, and steeled myself to walk away from what to me was a scene of inexplicable melancholy. Just put on your ear phones and walk on by and don't feel so much.

A colleague shared with me today the sense of rejection she felt when a student who had been confiding in her for the last 4 years suddenly became very curt towards her.

"Is that what it's like when your child grows up and finds you irritating?" she asked me.

I suppose so. My students haven't told me to mind my own business. But now, knowing they have got newfound wings, and are going to leave me soon, and that I'll soon be a distant memory to them, you can't help wondering -- perhaps a teacher really shouldn't feel too much for her students. Just sayang them when they're in your care, and when it's time, send them on their way, with your prayers. Parting is inevitable.


At 6:02 AM, Blogger stressed_teacher said...

I had a colleague who was very very close to his students. He loved them like his own daughters, and gave more to them than to his own children.

While some are appreciative, there is a limit of how appreciative they will be. Likewise, what do you really expect from them?

And some of the girls felt he was spending way too much time with them, instead of his own children, who have problems of their own....

At 6:12 AM, Blogger A.Ball.of.Yarn said...

i still can't get over the fact you used the word 'sayang' in your entry.;)

sigh. maybe it's just because i never felt sayanged enough in the time i spent in school.

At 4:11 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

although i'm not a teacher, i understand how you feel. the sudden sense of un-importance is quite depressing at times.

like you said, i guess you can only care for them when they're with you and give them your blessings when they leave.

on the bright side, they'll remember you for what you have done for them and how much you cared. The song has ended, but the melody lingers on... :)

At 7:36 AM, Anonymous Kai said...

i am also a sec 4 this yr, and i know how much i want my teachers to continue to care for me even when i graduate. ( yes, i am rather.. greedy, heh..)

personally, i think that only a real teacher will feel for her students. afterall, it is not as if the student is paying for someone who cares for them for 4 years. and when it is over, when the student stops paying.. everything ends.. right?

the teacher-student relationship is one of the most interesting and special relationship.

At 8:44 AM, Blogger trisha said...

Stressed Teacher:
I am very mindful of not devoting too much time to my students and neglecting my own daughter as a result. So far, I have managed to keep a pretty good balance.

I can't say I have felt 'sayanged' by my own teachers either. But now, being a teacher, I do feel like a parent of sorts to my students and hence, the tendency to want to sayang them!

I hope they remember, but one must never count on that too much, I suppose.

Is that true? That students do want their teachers to sayang them even after they've left sch?

I've never felt that I'm paid to care for my students. I do feel that I'm paid to teach, but the caring and wanting the best for my students are all FOC. Still, if I were one day to stop caring for my students, I think I would quit teaching. To teach just for the pay is absolutely miserable.

At 6:25 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

To teach just for the pay is absolutely miserable. - how true - and thus the high turnover in the MOE?

At 5:45 PM, Anonymous Shan Lin said...

Truly inspired by your blog.
Can I link you up?

At 8:14 PM, Anonymous Kai said...

i can safely say, for me, yes.

At 6:26 AM, Blogger trisha said...

Shan Lin:
Thanks for visiting my blog.
Of course you can link me. :)

At 6:51 AM, Blogger Sophie said...

wah, so touching. luckily i got parents who sayang me although i will never go to a real school. :-)


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